neW yEaR

Bismillah..

So a new is here..looking back loads have happen, but I'm not here to dwell on the past. The past is the past..all we can do is take Ibroh from what has happened........

For these couple of days, my heart is going up and down..more like my Iman..one part of me is like...

"Hey relax, don't need to change..have fun..no harm in that..' then another part is like.. "Oit! Wake up..life's so much bigger than that..you have things to do..."

I mean for you who's reading it seems easy to pick, but I'm having a hard time...I have no idea why..astaghfirullah..to think for the last 6 days I've done nothing..seriously...

But Allah is the All Knowing, just when my Iman was like *tuuuut* He helps me...For a few days I felt lost..felt very very very far...but then my naqibah told me to listen to this song..and the words are so powerful.....if I'm not mistaken it's from a hadeeth..

When they ask about me, my servants, I am near

Have no doubts about me, and know I hear your prayer
Take one step towards me, and I'll come running to you
Just have faith and believe, and know I listen to you

Allahummah (Dear God) creator of the universe,
maker of this living earth
greater than we comprehend

Allahummah your the King of all Kings
created all things
on you we all depend.

Allahummah please forgive me my sins,
my heart to be cleansed,
my soul purified, Ameen!

Allahummahaa protect me desires that
Lead to the fire, its you who provides, Ameen!

Allahummah help the Muslims of world,
Give them joy, give them love.
every boy every girl, Ameen!

Allahummun now this prayer I made,
Just to you I pray...

Masha Allah..I was blown..then I read something interesting...nowadays whenever we see someone doing something wrong the tendency for us to advise that person is low because in our hearts we say, 'Everyone does that, no biggie.."

That's where we are wrong, once we feel that doing a sin is normal and a part of life, it means our heart has really gone black...lets look at this analogy..

Let's say you bought a brand new car..of course you'll take care of it..make sure there it won't get scratched not even a tiny scratch..now compare if you have an old car that is filled with scratches..you'll probably say, one more scratch won't do any harm..won't be any different..

Now replace the car with our hearts..thats why we are ok with sins being done all around us..Imam Syafie one day lost his memorization all cause he saw a women's leg as small as a needle's hole...

He accidentally saw it, not on purpose and he lost his memorization..Subhanallah..the impact of an accidental sin is so big..but we nowadays are so used to sins that we don't feel anything..

So my New Years Resolution is one...to be the best MUSLIM I can be..the path is tough but Insha Allah I can do it..

Allah ya Rabbi, Ya Rabb
Help me increase my Iman (faith)
Allah ya Rabbi, Ya Rabb
Help me have faith in your plan
Allah ya Rabbi, Ya Rabb
Your blessings please never stop
Allah ya Rabbi Ya Rabb
Grant me peace in my heart!

Ameen...

P.S. This post is solely a reminder for myself and others...

P.S.S The song is I Am Near by Native Deen..

P.S.S.S For those akak2 that are worried about me, I'm ok..just need time to find myself..thanks for everything..love you guys!!