Bismillah,

It's funny how at times when you're having fun, finally getting comfortable with your surrounding then all of a sudden Allah sends a BIG test right in your face...

Last week I learned a lot..

I learned how to be nice to people even though they get on my last damn nerve...

I learned that sometimes I have to clean other people's mess that I have nothing to do with...

I learned that some people are not blessed as I am..that some people don't believe that ALLAH is there...

I learned that I can't make everyone happy..

I learned that some people are hypocrites..

I learned to control myself...

I learned to love ALLAH...

My friend Sarah said, " Kita jealous sangat dengan awak. Allah sayang awak sampai beri peluang untuk dapat pahala.."

I never thought of it that way... 4 nights ago, I admit I cried myself to sleep...the inner conflict started..

One part of me wanted to go home, felt that I was all alone..didn't belong..but my inner strength surprised me...

My inner strength said that I am never alone, as long as I am alive Allah is with me. He loves me..and as long as Allah is with me..that is home...

2 nights ago I think, I was starting to feel sad again...and then Sarah texted me:

"Be a person who can smile in trouble, can gather strength from distress, grow brave by reflection and whose heart is firm..."

At that moment rite after I read the text, I was reading Quran and I came upon the ayat..

"Then remember Me; I will remember you. Be grateful to Me, and reject not faith" 2:152

Thank you Allah..for testing me..for strengthening my IMAN...now I know..ALLAH is always with me..so that means anywhere HOME for me..as long as HE is there..

I guess that's why I really don't mind where I go..I mean most of my friends are surprised that I don't mind staying here for a whole 6 years without going home..anywhere is my home..

So to those who are facing hardships out there..know this..ALLAH loves you..don't ever forget that..May Allah bless us all..ameen..